Chronic fatigue and the battle of mind over matter, part 5, the lessons.

Five things I’ve learnt from being on a fast for two weeks.

This fast, without a doubt, was the biggest challenge, I’ve ever done. The funny thing is it was to do less than I would usually do. Sometimes doing less is harder than doing more.

1. There is an intersection between your goal, the difficulty, the temptation and the desire to see it through to the end. Doing a fast is probably the most difficult thing anyone can do. I actually can’t imagine any other situation where your body, subconscious and senses are all working against you, on top of that your mind is tired because it has no fuel to keep going. On top of that the further you get along the more difficult it gets, but also the temptation grows in line with the difficulty. Literally everything is literally working against you. Every cell in your body is telling you give up and the world around you is telling you how delicious food is.  It is really extreme yet you have to do less than you have ever done before.

2. Because of this challenge I’ve seen myself in a whole new light. It is confirmation that I can pretty much achieve anything now. If you can overcome aspects of addiction and still carry on functioning as an adult, you can pretty much do anything. That addiction is food and I don’t mean cream cakes. You need food to survive, so at some point in the fast, your body, literally, starts working against you. It starts to evoke images of delicious meals, your sense of smell improves and everything smells delicious. Your subconscious starts giving you reasons why you should start eating again. I think fasting may be the greatest personal development exercise you could ever do.

3. Planning increases your ability for will power and discipline. Planning breaks your goals down into more manageable chunks. It Makes it doable, but not only that, it makes it more fun. The more you see you have achieved the harder it is to quit. Which is the exact opposite to what I explained in my first learning. See how planning can help 🙂

4. If you don’t want to be tempted don’t look at FB and TV such, they are the most annoying mediums, if you’re trying to do anything. This is something that I’m applying full on from now on. No TV or FB until evening times. Even these posts won’t get put up on FB until after six. I feel TV and FB scramble my brain and I can’t think properly for the rest of the day.

5. Pushing your self is fun and so rewarding. I’ve gotten so much out of this fast even though I didn’t reach my target. Each day was a challenge and each day taught me something new. I am a much more effective person because of it and I believe in myself more because of it. I think that is a win.

So, where to from here? I really want to take this blog to the next level. Thanks to problogger.com I may have the challenge already. They have an eBook that is 31 days to a better blog. So I think I’ll do that and see if I can do it in less time.

Chronic fatigue and the battle of mind over matter part 4.

I’ve fallen down, face down in emotional mud. I have failed one day short of my 14 day Fast. To be exact 23 hours and 55 minutes. This post is me desperately trying to salvage some good out of my failure. I’m digging up and learning from my mistakes.Fallen in mud

It came over me like a bolt of clarity, what the BLEEP am I doing, I’m in bits my teeth hurt and I can’t think clearly. My body is wasting away and I feel terrible all I’ve done for the past 4 hours is lie on my bed. I’ve wasted the past 3 days on this fast and I’ve gotten very little done. Tomorrow is going to be the same. I don’t want to waste another day being in pain and mentally tortured, I want to start going back to the gym. This fast is nuts I’m going to eat something, to get back on track.

That was the thought process, it happened in a second. I got up and walked down stairs and my Mam was there, I said I’m ending this fast. Without a blink, she said “yea you where crazy to do it as long as you did, any way”. That was it, game over!!!

In the 30 seconds or so that it took you to read those two paragraphs, was all it took to end my 13 days of hard work. The initial thought happened in the blink of an eye.

What went wrong, why all of a sudden did I crack. Does my will power suck do I suck at pushing myself. Have you ever felt this before? If I only had a bit more discipline and will power. I have felt this all too often.

As it turns out I actually don’t have any issues with discipline, or will power and neither do you.

Through research into goal achievement and attainment, I came across a book called Change anything.

As it turns out will power is only a tiny bit of really achieving a goal. This is where I went wrong I was relying on will power too much.

I had read change anything during the week and I made a plan according to their guidelines, but as they say in the book it only takes one of the 6 key influencers to knock you off track. Two of them took me out.

First of all my subconscious used what I like against me. It used value language. It knew I wasn’t going to quit because of hunger, so it used something else. It used wasting time and the gym against me. I hate wasting time and I love going to the gym which I missed these two motivating factors where the straw that broke the camel’s back. It dangled them like a carrot out in front of me.

Secondly I had an accomplice in my failure. My Mam I know she wanted the best for me, but that is not what I wanted for me. She sided with my subconscious and that sealed the deal.

What could I have done differently? Through reading the book I knew there would be difficult times ahead. I could have planned for their eventualities and developed a tactic to apply in moments of weakness.

I could have read my goal again and the reasons why I was doing the fast. It would have refocused me.

I could have rung a friend not an accomplice. A friend is a person who is focused on your goal, an accomplice is a person who may want you to stay the way you are or to accompany you in your old habit. If I’d have rung someone who knew what I was aiming for, they very well could have changed my mind and put me back on track.

Through doing this fast, I’ve gotten to see the goal setting process in a vibrant way. I’ve done all the wrong things and done all the right things, some in the right sequence and some in the wrong.

I know for the next time I do it, I will plan better and I know now I will have a bolt of clarity that will threaten to derail but now I can plan for it and turn it around. I will get more friends in on my goal and use them to keep me on track. I will build up the environment around me to be more conducive to success and ultimately limit all temptations in order to increase my will power.

I am looking forward to the next challenge as I am definitely stronger because of this one. (Which I will have up in the next day or so).

I have gotten my back out of the mud and I’ve started to dig my way up again……….Climbig out of mud

Chronic fatigue and the battle of mind over matter part 3

Some times life is easy, some times its hard. some times we choose to make it hard, in order to make it easy. I’ve chosen to make my life hard by doing this 14 day fast, but in the long run clearing out my system and giving my organs a break will increase my will power, health and energy. Who doesnt want more of that.

The more challenges we take the stronger we become. If I didn’t do it, I would never know if I could. by never trying I’d always doubt myself. Who doesn’t want more self belief.

It’s only in “doing” that we grow.

Written at 3.24 in the morning, after waking up from a dream where I had two delicious plates of food. The hunger is making me hallucinate positive encouragement. Maybe that is just me trying to make my life easier at the same time. 🙂

Chronic fatigue and the battle of mind over matter part 2

I’m on day 7 of my hunger strike. Ha ha only joking.

I’ve actually just started day seven of my 14 day fast. I’ve just been drinking lemon juice, maple syrup and cayenne pepper, oh and heaps of water and some salt cleanses too, not nice but necessary, the lemon juice is nice even after 21 or so litres of it.

The first two days where tough but gradually it’s been getting easier and easier. Some times and i mean only sometimes, i get a real craving for something but then i just drink more juice and i get back on track its nuts. I guess it’s just practice, I’m getting used to it now.

To be completely honest thought, I feel better than I have for months and on a whole, if you add all the days together, I feel better than i have for years.

I have come to realise that there are two main aspects to my chronic fatigue. One is mental and the other is physical.  The mental is affecting the physical and in return the physical is affecting the mental. It is a vicious cycle.

I’ve tried blood tests; I’m all clear and normal.

I’ve tried food allergy tests, I have lots of intolerances, eliminated most of them for a year, but this only stressed me out, as I was constantly worrying about what i had eaten wrong when I was tired. This in hindsight was really the worst thing to do and a waste of a year. Our intolerances go the less stressed we are. (Certain situations are different but generally)

I’ve tried nutrition / vitamins that had worked a bit, but it’s not done much.

I’ve tried a Candida diet where I ate no sugar or carbs for a month. That was a waste of time also. But this can work for some worth a check out.

I’ve been to doctors, nutritionists, dieticians, naturopaths and every other health care person I could think of. Doctors, nutritionist’s, dieticians, haven’t a clue about how to be healthy.  Naturopaths are the way to go if you’re looking to get healthy. The other people recommend bull that has been recommended by pharmaceutical companies and the meat industry.

Through all that, I’ve tried different alternative healing modalities like, bio energy healing this was the most effective thing I’ve done, but it didn’t last for me. I got a fantastic month where I felt on top of the world but gradually the fatigue crept in. I still had the bad habits that got me into the mess in the first place.

Through all my tests, trials and tribulations, what I have found is that I’ve been stressed. I have a very active brain, a lot of ambition and an even greater impatience. That has been pushing me forward at a great pace, but ambition coupled with negative beliefs and a lot of impatience, with myself, has caused a lot of frustration, which is ultimately stress. Imagine on top of that being tired all the time, it is a disaster waiting to happen.

Our bodies are not designed to be hyped up the time, we are supposed to get stressed, then relax and rejuvenate. Because we over work or bodies and we deplete our stores, effectively we start to run on empty. This is where we start to lose the battle it is a downhill struggle from here.

The mechanism I’m explaining is our animal instincts, running over drive. Our flight or fight mechanism, our survival instinct. Imagine 100,000 years ago in the jungle a lion jumps out and we run and hide. The lion triggered our stress response, which shuts down non essential parts of our bodies and hypes up the essential ones to get away, like your heart and muscles, Makes sense, but then we hide and relax, then carry on with our low stress lives, we rest and recover from the attack.

In this modern age we have lots of low level startles every day. We have to pay our bills, we are stressed in our jobs, we have to remember so much stuff, we have to play it over and over in our heads, so we don’t forget to do it.

Imagine this the biggest electrical or phone bill comes in your front door and you do not have the money for it until pay day, but it is overdue. You get a big dose of stress. That is just a one time thing but if you remember it later in the day, that bill stresses you out again and again and again. This one bill torments us, building our stress, shutting down parts of our bodies, and hyping up other parts. Our stores of energy get depleted, and limiting our recovery time. We need a break, but it’s time to get back to work, and so the cycle continues all day. Even when you get home, that one bill is still tormenting you even in your dreams. DEN DEN DENNNnnnn.

We have all experienced that before, it may have not been bills, but some other thing. Maybe it’s just the fact you’re tired and it pisses you off a thousand times a day.

Our brains get hyped up and caught in a loop, its constant stress and worry.

Now for the real lesson: How does our brain being active, affect our bodies? We have all heard of someone or experienced this ourselves, I call it the butterfly effect. Imagine being nervous before an interview or to do a performance, we get butterflies in our stomach, some people even vomit. That is a direct stress response on the digestive system.

I’m sure you remember earlier in the jungle, I said that when the lion attacked, that we shut down non essential parts of our bodies when stressed, well that part is your digestive system. Who needs to digest when your life is threatened? Not me for sure.

For the past two years I’ve had a mild pain in my stomach or let’s say mild discomfort. I’ve had a foggy feeling in my brain for years and real fatigue for much longer.

I have really high standards for myself. I have found most chronic fatigue sufferers are the same.

What I have done wrong is, I have let my thoughts run away with themselves. Churning over and over worrying and stressing over things, that now in hind sight I should have let go.

All these problems have been tough and frustrating, however I am actually grateful for them, would you believe.

I have learned so much about health, nutrition, psychology, fitness and what I am capable of, over the past few years, that i am sure, i would not have learned otherwise.

It is true all the tough times teach you the best things. However you do not have to go through them you can learn from mine. 🙂

I know i would not be here writing this blog if it wasn’t for all the lessons i have learned over the years through not being at my best. For all this i am immensely grateful.

Through all my study and personal development I’ve learned, what I feel is the solution to chronic fatigue.

We have to look at our lives not our problems. We have to look at our body as a whole. If you go to a doctor he does not know about psychology, if you go to a nutritionist they do not know about pathogens, if you got to a psychologist they do not know anything. Ha ha…. It’s funny cos it’s true. I would not recommend going to any of the above 3. They are only focused on problems not solutions and that is not what you want. such as naturopaths, life coaches, NLP practioners, Hypnosis, ayurveda, all these people will give you the direction to get healthy. check out SCIO for a diagnosis and a starting point.

Any way we have to look at our bodies in a whole-istic way.

We have three main aspects to us as human beings; we are mind, body and energy. We have to get all three in balance to feel spectacular or just even good.

I did the bio energy that worked but wasn’t permanent.

I did nutrition, but that didn’t work all the way.

I did psychology which made me think better, but other things kept pulling me back.

The problem was I did not do all three at once. We need good nutrition to have a good energy field. We need good psychology (not stressed) to have good nutrition. The power cable was broken in many places and that stopped the energy flowing.

This is how I’m putting all this together now.

1st. I’m sorting my head out. I’m getting rid of all those negative beliefs that are polluting my brain and my body. This is all to make my thinking easier and there for less stressed, but on top of that I’m starting to meditate, to actually actively calm my brain before i go to bed and in the morning.

If you meditate for half an hour before bed, i find I have an amazing night’s sleep, which as you know is good regeneration time.

When I meditate in the morning, it makes my whole day easier, which is less stressed and there for more recovery time, which makes you way more capable during the stressed times.

2nd. Sorting my nutrition and health out: I’m currently on this 14 day fast which is to give my overworked digestion a break, and letting it re-set its self. When we do a fast it clears all the toxins out, on top of that it clears out all the old fat, muscle and any other shit that is in your system. Basically it kills off all the bad stuff and only leaves a healthy body behind.

I get to start with a clean slate. (Remember what i said at the start. I’m on day seven and I’m feeling the best I have in years and feeling better by the day.)

3rd. I’m going to sort out my energy field. I may not have to do this, as your body and mind generates the actual field, like a magnet. But if I feel it’s necessary, I’ll go do the bio energy healing again at the end of the 14days. But as it is I’m half way and well on my way to feeling the best i have in years.

I hope this is of use to you and you have a fantastic life. I’m certainly feeling more optimistic about mine.

Best of luck.

Chronic fatigue and the battle of mind over matter.

I’m currently on day three of a diet, called the master cleanse.

Essentially I’m not eating for two weeks. I want to basically reset my digestive system, because I’ve had major issues with fatigue over the past few years, and this is the latest in a long line of things, I’ve tried, to get rid of it. Out of everything I’ve tried I wish i tried this first. start at the start. have a good clean out and then work from there. makes perfect sense now.

The first two days where tough. Today is not to bad surprisingly.

I’ve lost 9 pounds, or 2 and a bit kg’s. I have no interest in loosing weight. so its freaking me out a bit. I’ll put it back on quick enough.

I feel as weak as a kitten, but something inside me is saying this is the right thing to do.

I’ve had a few bursts today of feeling good which was a real surprise because I haven’t felt good in a really long time.

I’m really looking forward to the result. already getting complements on how my skin looks. I haven’t noticed but hay a complement is a complement. 

I’ll keep you posted on progress.

Exciting times ahead.